Marinating wounds,
Comfortably numb.
It started with fire,
It ended ice cold.

I was all over him,
He was all over me.
Hazed memories,
I just wanted to not feel.

Worsening things,
Some thing I keep getting better at.
You would not come home,
He would not leave me be.


He said all the right things,
But, oh, i was the wrong girl
So empty without you,
And he was just there.

He was all over me,
I was all over him,
He left a scar on my neck,
Like you gave my heart a dent.

Good intentions,
Ruined by your interpretations.
His eyes were sympathetic,
And i just wanted to be held.

Lost in the translation,
A temporary lapse of judgment.
I wanted to love him,
But i had yet to unlove you.

You were out in the cold,
With someone to keep you warm
His hands were moving,
I laid unfeeling, like a ****** god.

His eyes showed hurt,
He smiled despite it all
Said he knew
I never felt that way about him.

My heart ached,
From the loss of something that could have been
I wanted to rip every thing i loved out of you,
And find it in him.

He said goodbye,
I could not say sorry.
He lingered on the doorway,
I could not get myself to ask him to stay.

I burned down the albums,
I threw away the cards.
I knew i had to run,
Before your monsters caught up to me.

I knew he forgave me,
Like he knew i was willing to forget.
He gave me the grace,
I lost to you.

I am afraid,
No one ever taught you how to love.
You spend the night in one's arms,
And wake with another's name in your thoughts.

I wanted to hurt you,
I wanted to inflict the pain you gave me,
I only hurt myself,
And i am the only one to blame.

I'll look for redemption,
I'll undo what you did.