They said you're gone
But I can't see
How someone so good
Could possibly

Be gone

I wake up everyday
And my mind
Immediately thinks of you
The initial thought

Is never the same

I wonder why you left
I question if it was fate
I think about how much you meant to me
I wonder if you could relate

I think

You told me we'd go to the gym
And that you'd teach me to shoot *****
You said you make me french toast
And that you'd hang me by my feet

You lied

Every time I think of you
My brain starts to hurt
Because I truly cannot tell
If you meant any of it

There was more

Clearly I didn't see it
You hid it all so well
But I was starting to understand
And you had started to tell

I knew

I saw that you were struggling
But I didn't know quite how
You seemed to have a handle on it
But I see you didn't, now

You fell

You finally hit the bottom
A place you clearly feared
And instead of picking yourself back up
The alcohol saw the clear

Why

I can't imagine how hurt
And how drunk you must've been
Because taking your life isn't easy
And it truly was sudden

I'm sorry

I know I played a part
And now I've got to live
With the thought that I destroyed you
From the love I had to give

I don't know

How am I supposed to continue
Who am I supposed to be
I'm trying so hard to move forward
But I needed you here with me

The questions

They pile inside me
They grow and they consume my mind
And you will never answer them
It makes me feel so blind

I will

Grow strong and be here
For others just the same
Because I know life will carry on
And there no stopping the game

I can't

Help but wonder
How it would've turned
Had we never had met
Was your fate still doomed to burn