I can't stop feeling this privileged pain of existing
I wouldn't be alive without it

This anxiety that clings to me
Reminds me I'm breathing

I'm a child of the night
And with that beauty comes the fright

The pain and heartache felt in my universes afterhours

My mind towers over me
My stupid-smart brain making me think of non-reality

This feeling, this love, this ache,
Has always been a part of me

I claim I am no stranger to lost love or heartache
And everytime I think of this I feel my heart break

Oh how boring it must be for those who simply leave, or never felt the need

Summer is ending. Along with the world.

I told you this long ago,
You probably don't remember.  

But I,
Always remember.  

I retain information to a fault,
And I always find fault in the information I retain.

I've said it before,
I'll say it again, I,
Am no stranger to pain.
No stranger to 'less than friends'
Changes without compromise

I feel like I've wasted my entire life.

I feel stuck, I feel broken.
I haven't enjoyed each moment carefully,
And haven't found one moment of clarity in my teenage diary,

My thoughts aren't on the edge of extinction,
But our conversations might be.

I don't think we realized how much we ****** each other up until I tried to love again,
I tried to make new friends.

I'm defensive and bitter,
I've never been a quitter
So sit your *** down!
And lets talk about this.

Its late and I'm tired.
But I miss you
And hiatuses make me realize i do.
And maybe I don't mean anything to you,
Not anymore at least,
But the least I deserve is an explanation,
A conversation,
Make time, pull your reservation and give me your ****** explanation!

I don't care if its an exageration.  

Maybe I care,

Some.

But I'm tired, and alone with my thoughts,
And I usually make a point not to do that.
But sleep escapes me and so does time
And I might not be 'living my best life'
But only I can be this insane way,

Have you ever met anyone else like me?
I pray you haven't,
My mind says I'm easy to replace.  

But lets ignore that and assume my psyche is lying to me.

It wouldn't be the first time that happened.