i sit here
my mind slowly releasing me into insanity
into teenage depression
into the unknown of all I've ever known
i bang my head, but i no longer feel pain
almost immune

perhaps its the lack of sunlight, eh?

but
it's probably me turning a rose into only a
pile of thorns
dramatic
i try to hold on
but then i release
i can feel you in my grasp
but then i feel your warm embrace slipping away

i almost feel heaven
but then I'm transported to Hell