I guess I'd just forgotten what it felt like
That cold slice of rejection slitting my throat
and allowing me to bleed until I'm empty

My heart isn't even there anymore
I don't think it could stand to watch this unfold
I've allowed others to bruise it too often
To squeeze it until it's lifeless and grey

All the signs were pointing in one direction
And like an idiot,
I followed them

I ended up at the top of a mountain
with the most beautiful view
I felt like I could do anything,
but quickly tumbled down,
breaking all of my bones
and spilling my innards onto the pavement

I can't do this anymore
I just want the pain to stop
so I can quit dying
and start living
my life