I've lost count of how many times I've cried
For the impossible desires
For the lost haven
For the stubborn hope.

I've lost count of how many times I've tried
To let go of you
To accept the truth
Only to come back for more.

I've lost count of how many times I've lied
Holding on to a silly pride
Letting you think everything was fine
Just to show my pain through my bleeding lines.