It's her last night He wrote in cryptic text Tears welling and streaming down my face A single email At the end of what I hope to be my day But it never is.
I know you'll be singing to her tonight And I guess I think In my gut of guts You spawned a character You spawned a growth in me Both painful and stressful But a growth nonetheless.
I imagine you You surround yourself with love Another woman to hold you I'm trying to remember If I ever really saw you cry And this could be Would have been The part Where I call you on the phone Extend my hand But I can't forget what you did.
There is so much heart in it all In everything I do Even in my coldest moments.
You said you know I loved her My eyes once lit up When you would call me her mommy Like that time I laid in the big pink princess bed The one you didn't want But I did So we stayed there And each night I'd end the night around 2AM But that was too early for you So I'd drunkenly lay in bed alone The lights off in Peoria, IL And wonder Is this it?
I remember like a fleet of foxes The way it looked and felt In my bohemian skirt Silk tank top I drew on our faces You dubbed us the nymph god and goddesses So proud of the pictures you took of me Only to grow resentful And your jagged jadedness That I was so eager to just accept Taking me down into a well Of diminishing my own soul.
I know you never meant to You would say You wanted me to be big and strong We took our first real photo then My hair an array of colors Enkidu ran around Smiling into the sunlight I took photos of you from behind Walking into the pleasurable distance Sobbing behind trees Trying to work out my things Red wine, pumpkin pop tarts
I really gave it my best shot Cannon.
I hope you both find peace tonight I never wanted to not be there Until you made me want to go And never come back.