I don't like the way this feels most days. Can you believe I don't like such complexity? Why is my affection never simple? Never just one-sided; instead, It's a moon with phases, with changes Too unpredictable to pencil down. It used to be spring tides or none at all But I've been getting tamer ones lately. If it does crash, it does so politely, lightly Carressing my shore with waves of affection.
Sometimes I forget to worry. Sometimes I forget how heavy-handed I can be, How easily I can hurt, despite The dulling of my edges; And I do this for some people My affection wants to keep. I admit it's not the wisest thing I do. The shackles hurt a lot more When you jump too far, Thinking you can make it.
Still, I wonder if that might be better. I do not like my anxiety, but I don't like being absentminded in this either. I do not like not knowing, not holding The reins of my affection, my hurricane affliction I do not like the way this feels most days. I do not like the thought of hurting you. I do not like it when this moon is new but I must say, I do like the way you want this, too.