i bought myself steel-toed boots for christmas like it would matter as if i could kick things like paranoia, fear and vulnerability
my whole head is making this strange, dissonant noise it feels kind of like pressure building, by surprise
because i'm going, going, going with my hands touching all of the things
i thumped my corroded heart onto the table and asked if he wouldn't mind sitting with it for a while
did i know then that his body moves just like theirs?
i have blades in my palms walking home despite how i interpret my murmuring heart mostly i think it's reminding me to live, i think it's especially easy to forget
i'm choking, go ahead and tell me how much you understand it
i have blades in my palms, the boots and buttons up to my neck i can taste their eyeballs anyway and the rotting is sand it's getting underneath my toenails now, stop just a second the boots and the buttons might as well be silk the way their bodies are closing in feels like absolute reliable death i'm thumping and shivering and their voices the way everything shifts a little as my hands tighten around the mace makes me wonder if i had ever been safe to begin with because it seems like i've only ever been trembling in anticipation of your violence
my father is strong and firm and knocks at the window in the way that punches a small, undeniable hole directly through my windpipe
there are a lot of things about this canal that the probe cannot understand
clearly evident in the shift in your spine as the door slams behind you
did i know at eight years old that footsteps would come to sound like fists to me? i always knew the tenor of arguments would send me over, but at this point i've lost count of the ways through which my environment stands to strangle me
how many voices eked out, slowly do you have to miss before you'll hear me?
they might as well be constricting my limbs on the spot with the ways they graze my hot, sweating flesh
does it count as purgatory if you're burning from the inside?