Sometimes, I suppose I am happy When I am with my friends, Throwing my head back and covering my mouth As I shake with laugher At a joke someone just made. But then the day turns to night And my carefree grin turns into an unexplainable sadness. I lay in bed. Thinking about all the things I wish I could say. All the things I'm afraid too admit, Even with one pen, paper, and one mind. It's nights like these when I realize I am many things I am happy and sad, Outgoing and shy, Quiet But mostly, I am empty.