I want to pretend for a while
Just a short while,
That things are not as bad as my head is making them out to be.

I want to smile at every single person I see and hug them till we share the same skin

I want to buy flowers every morning and fill my bedroom with all the sweet smells and colours of nature.

I want to paint every single wall in the city lumo yellow, so it's never too dark to walk at night alone.

I want to cut my hair and wear bright red lipstick. I want to wear only white dresses for a year.

If we share the same skin, maybe you'll think twice about wanting to hurt me

Flowers are just to cover up the stench of heartbreak and disappointments thats always hanging in the air

Bright yellow walls so that the dark cannot be blamed for deaths of bodies and souls anymore. And the light will blind and expose all the sinners.

Hair cut, just because we have to force ourselves to let go sometimes. Because waiting for every strand to grow out takes far too long, and we've never had time.  

Red lipstick - a warning as well as a reminder of the blood. So much blood.

365 white dresses,
So that the slightest stain cannot be hidden.
Because white is the opposite of darkness
Because I don't want to blend into the night anymore.

I want to be seen from the highest building in town
I want to be seen from airplanes,
I want to be seen from space.

So no one can lie and say,

I didn't know you weren't okay.