Bringing back memories from months ago
To be in love since this afternoon.

Wrapping my mind around rewards and consequences
To justify being there soon.

Using the truth of the near future as a lie
To appear as content as I tend to feel.

Avoiding urges that are quickly returned
To confirm my actions are real.

Opening blunt, censored thoughts
To explain sporadic running away.

Blocking and forgetting what forever is to be
To allow events to happen as they may.