My father made me feel like I was never good enough. My grades were never high enough, my weight never low enough, and I was never pretty enough. It's a hard lesson to live with when it berates you every time you come home.
My first boyfriend emotionally abused me. Toyed with me and used me to try and get what he wanted. Sexually harassed me in the middle of class and I was told by my friends he'd hit me one day. When I refused to give in to his pathetic whims, he resigned to talking to his ex girlfriend because I wasn't good enough.
The next three guys I was with was really only one, who came back each time after breaking me with a new excuse, a new reason to reel me in. Break up with me, date someone else, ask for me back and then flirt with someone else. I still was't good enough no matter what I did.
I moved on finally and met the next guy. A presumed sweetheart who had issues, like me. But his daddy issues and inability to show emotion, slowly suffocated me. His own insecurities attacked mine and instead of trying to make me feel good about myself, he insisted on asking me why I wasn't as good as the other girls he'd been with.
And now I've met you. You came into my life when I least expected it and have exceeded all of my highest expectations because you treat me how I deserve and never let me forget my worth. So, I'm sorry I get insecure, and ask you to not bring things up. I understand that I am unreasonable sometimes and I know there's no cure for the mess that I am. But after all is said and done, theres nothing I'm more grateful for than you saying you understand.