I stare into obscenity,
Nothing can stop this,
It's taking over me.
I look into the mirror,
Despising what I see,
I realise that someone else is controlling me.
Im not alone in spirit,
I'm not alone in bone,
I'm looking for a way to descend into the unknown.
I hold a knife to my neck to see if it'll bleed,
I slice my jugular vein,
More blood I want to see.
It has become an addiction,
Unsettling to some,
To me it's the most beautiful thing that could ever have been done.
I watch myself bleed out and Incessantly laugh,
I stand naked, bleeding into the bath.
Maniac desires to **** and be killed,
Eyes turn yellow before the bath is is filled
With crimson blood,
My body will flood,
I dream to join a regime where it is normal to feel how I feel.
No one can know it,
No one can see,
What is this demon living inside of me?
Take it away,
Relieve the pain,
Before I bleed out,
Never to watch my blood again.