[November 4, 2011]
There are things hidden
Behind false masks, secrets behind broken trust
Deep within my soul, in my heart I did feel
Something disturbed the peace, upset the perfect balance
This I know, but I cannot know. I know nothing.
I can’t help but wonder, is it my face?
I must be scary when you flee from me
I know you’re afraid, I see it within your eyes
You couldn’t face me, you wouldn’t tell me.
You run from me.
Am I blind? Can I not see?
Where are you? Come back to me
Further and further I drove you away
You tried to show me, the mist is thick
Through the glass, you faded from sight
Do I have amnesia? I cannot remember
You said you told me, I must have forgot
I’m trying to find you in an unfamiliar crowd
You blend in so well, I thought I knew your face
I’m lost in empty space.
Am I deaf? Can I not hear?
Did you tell me? Or did I not care?
I think you did, but I misheard
I tried to listen, but no sound reaches me
Your words come, no more.
It rips me apart, burns my shreds
It tears out my heart, leaves me to insanity
I am undone by ignorance, a memory long forgotten
I am broken, I try to speak. But I am mute.
You stole my voice and I never knew
Now there is a third, that I can see
Even though my ignorance has blinded me
I couldn’t remember, I could not speak
I thought it was me, maybe it was you
Sneaking within the shadows of my own perfect world
I’ve defended my castle, however, nothing lasts forever
Walls crumble, dreams decay
And even on the satin in which I lay, my existence fades
And in it’s place, the golden one stands
And in his hand, in which he holds,
There lies my Ignorance.
Author Note: A poem I wrote about a past relationship that fell beyond my control.
Ignorance [November 4, 2011]
Describes a failing relationship that was always beyond control.