I saw the door wide open
Tempting my weak side to go in,
All I had to do is take one step.

Sincere but unwanted thoughts found their way to me...
"You won't go in without him..."
"You can't be genuinely happy without him, and you certainly don't want to"  
"You are incapable of standing without his arms there to hold you
"You can't glow without him, he is the energy that allows you to fire up"


So I closed my eyes and gave up
Allowing darkness and loneliness to embrace and surround me one more time, fulfilling me with fear of living life without him, of being happy without him.

But things couldn't stay like that forever... (Read the next poem, part 2)