I feel numb and cold. I feel isolated and bored. My hands have sinned again. This body is no longer holy without you by its side. Without your hands caressing my arms and thighs.
I painted a map on the wall. Planned to build a raft to float across the ocean hoping to land on your shores.
I can't sleep alone anymore. I have to move next to you. I forgot what is it like to feel. Lost my appetitive and will to survive. I need you badly in my bed sheets tonight. I stained the walls with geography.
Paint splattered on my shirt. And now I'm left with nothing to do but to write you a love note and head out to build that boat.
I'll be kicking these waves soon. By dawn i'll be wrapped up in your arms. And we'll be kissing again under the moon light. But now , i have these feral waves to fight ~