after nights of coffee and staying up late, and books and games that consumed our time, something ended between us without even saying a word. and now i long for you and your touch and i am completely infatuated. i am completely incomplete. my heart aches for you and my body is like shattered glass. the endless ruins of my mind wont even allow me to escape. and i am completely devastated. i am completely terrified. but you continue to flick the ashes from your cigarette and stand tall with all your glory. and you walk the halls like nothing matters but the truth is that you still love her. and i am completely fine. i am completely hallow. and this is my final attempt for walking away from this. whatever this is. whatever we are. and i am completely happy for you. i am completely done with you. because darling, i have always been yours but you were never mine from the start.