I'm walking like I'm trying to find something
a mother who lost her child
my own heart in my throat beating
and my soul slowly shaking
and i want to scream but no voice comes out
as if with a loud frequency i can get myself knocked down
i walked hurriedly like i was looking for something
i was looking for myself
life treated me like it was a filled dinner table
with no chair for me
i stayed an outsider to this world like i had no family
life gave me pain
i swallowed it till my throat had my heart in captivity
im a lost child
the oceans ran through my veins
salty , making its way
to my heart and lungs
an ocean of pain , my tears
come out of my eyes like a tsunami
building up inside me
and nothing could save me
no human or feeling could keep me
sane and ordinary
people look at my sad expression
"you make me sad " they say to me
like i can't make myself even sadder