It should have felt like a lifted weight so I could move through an unlocked gate
brush your teeth on my neck and your cheeks across my chest I thought last time was the last time Tiny drops became the anthem And the tears found a quiet path To roll onto my belly Between you and me
I could still taste the poetry you left in my mouth the deception and interception of my growth and of my youth
My clothes hung off my back darkness from all the sleep I lack Trying to wash out the scent of you after 6 years, I thought I'd be through but you've kept me here and I've let you
I am a lost warrior in the meadow Treading water every night Trapped in an internal fight You held me in the shadows Grabbing at the wildflowers in my breath But I just kept breathing in the echoes Of a time I must let go
The mist of my trouble followed me in March Iβd sit with tea and say things like βI feel better, but maybe not tomorrowβ There was no promise Just moderate disbelief No security in my sleep So when I shook your outline out of my sheets Laid in bed where I once lost my youth I wish that this was not my truth