i have a dream about you
and wake up and think "i never want to be with you again"

the disappointment is so visceral that i feel it in my waking skin
in my heart like some heavy dream-weight
what weighs more a pound of feathers
or a pound of bricks?

you say bricks and i laugh out loud

i call you in a gift shop
running my thumbs through animal key chains searching for your name

i tell strangers that you're together again
i tell strangers that you are disappointing me again

*oct282016