I have no expectation for things to last. Everything has a clock, an expiration date, an erosive half-life. After taking stock of my current relationships, I realized I'm hesitant to invest in people because I don't think people will stick around.
People change. People leave.
And for people who don't deal with change well like me that means a sort of implosion. Humans constantly assume different roles.
Mothers become grandmothers, friends become strangers, brothers become fathers.
With that, even family will leave you behind-- out of sight out of mind. And I haven't been thought of in such a long time I begin to think no one will ever see me again. Now I'm just wishing I can be useful in some way, so I can stop feeling like the world is tired of carrying me.
I sit, watching people pass by as their world changes, and mine falls apart.