Hatred and anger competing for failure.
Cannot face death but still can't face life.
Reality pierces my soul like a knife.

Cannot let go,
Cannot press on.
Cannot look forward for fear of defeat,
Cannot look back for fear of me.

Love and despair on a coat hanger.
Won't wear either in spite of my need.
Nothing can grow from this rotten seed.

Cannot let go,
Cannot press on.
Cannot look forward for fear of defeat,
Cannot look back for fear of me.

If love is the cancer, then patience the doctor,
Both looking on to see what they see.
Anger the drug, compulsion the answer,
Forcing my hand, my body's commander.

Cannot stand back, I must journey on.
Cannot believe my will is this strong.

Ignoring my failures and chains of fear,
I carry on just like you were here.