To my son. This is me, apologizing..... I apologize for all the bumps in the road. For the nights when I stayed up rocking you unsure of where we would sleep tomorrow. I apologize that your daddy couldn't be there for your birth, he was there with me until I left for the hospital. Know that he is a good man who got caught up in the wrong woman. I apologize for all of the times I lost my temper, I never wanted to be a screaming parent and I hope that when you read this you look back and think "but you rarely yelled". I apologize for never feeling that I was a good mother, I hope that the way I felt about myself never affected your views of self worth. Lastly I apologize for being just a kid myself trying to raise a better child, if I ever make you feel disappointed, disrespected, angry, or resentful I apologize. I love you with everything that I have... I am trying little bug.... Mommy is trying.