WHY AM I EVEN ******* ALIVE?!
I can't do it anymore, I can't I can't...
Urgh! The breakdowns, I DONT DESERVE THIS

I am nothing
I dont exist
I mean nothing
I dont matter
I get nothing
I dont care

Please help me, what do I do
I dont know anymore
Im a mistake, a ***** up
Useless
Pathetic
Good for nothing

Everything I do is wrong, when I'm upset I get called angry
When I try to defend my sadness I'm just angry
I speak and it doesn't matter, why would it
Don't I matter
How I feel
It doesnt feel like it

Im not the only one
I did it too
Im wrong
Stop doing this
Stop doing that
You dont do this
You do that

I CANT I CANT I CANT
MY HEAD it SpiNs
pLeASe sTOp the MaDNesS