You were always my sun I told you that a thousand times before Every morning and in nearly every poem. You lit my life You kept me warm You made me happy.
Even now that you ended it Even though I remember our last few months were rough I can't focus on anything but the good times. The warmth in your smile Watching the pulse in your neck in the morning When I was big spoon. The way you danced when you put on make up The way you danced when we brushed our teeth (together, always) The way you danced your way into my heart And danced all over it while I showed you my world And danced to my lips so that I'd kiss you while I grinned. You were perfect. We were perfect.
I'm left numb and cold, Emotionless. But I can't hate you Because I can't remember if or why I should
I have to remember That you shattered me, My world, and everything I knew Just to see if I'd come running back to you.
I didn't know. I respected your decision. And now I live knowing that I was presented with The only test that mattered And I failed.