May 2016
Texts I never sent once you left me, again*
1. Nothing feels as comforting as your arms around me. I remember feeling weightless with you. Now, my body is constantly strained from carrying my broken heart. It's so heavy. I'm so ******* heavy...I'm sorry you're heavy too.
2. I'm not happy with what I've done or who I have become while loving you. I'm sorry for being so hazy
3. Last year, I made a promise to myself to only surround myself with positive people. Coincidentally, I met you shortly after. We grew attached at the hip, always together. Your antics rubbed off on me, along with your enthusiasm. I've been isolating myself since you left. I broke that promise to myself- when I needed to keep it most
4. You shouldn't have to justify why you fell out of love. I'm sorry for begging you to
5. My grandmother told me I would have my heart broken before I found the one, but if I was lucky, the same person would repair the damages he had caused. I was heart broken the first time you left, but you came back. Why aren't you coming back now?
6. I'm heavy again, I'm sure you are free by now
7. People tell me my sadness is pretty, that the words spewing from my heart are divine, but my words were never enough to make you stay
8. I want you here. I want you to kiss the marks I created when I didn't want to wake up.
9. I miss you eminently and sometimes I can't feel my body. Please don't tell me you understand or that I'll be okay. You aren't ******* listening
10. I woke up choking your name
11. Every single time you promised to stay- you should have clarified that you meant as a memory
12. I've been splitting my veins like glow sticks in hopes of seeing new light
13. I'm ******* tired of all the metaphors, why can't it all just be about you again
14. Poe encountered a raven, while I encountered you. Somehow we both went mad
15. goodnight
1. Nothing feels as comforting as your arms around me. I remember feeling weightless with you. Now, my body is constantly strained from carrying my broken heart. It's so heavy. I'm so ******* heavy...I'm sorry you're heavy too.
2. I'm not happy with what I've done or who I have become while loving you. I'm sorry for being so hazy
3. Last year, I made a promise to myself to only surround myself with positive people. Coincidentally, I met you shortly after. We grew attached at the hip, always together. Your antics rubbed off on me, along with your enthusiasm. I've been isolating myself since you left. I broke that promise to myself- when I needed to keep it most
4. You shouldn't have to justify why you fell out of love. I'm sorry for begging you to
5. My grandmother told me I would have my heart broken before I found the one, but if I was lucky, the same person would repair the damages he had caused. I was heart broken the first time you left, but you came back. Why aren't you coming back now?
6. I'm heavy again, I'm sure you are free by now
7. People tell me my sadness is pretty, that the words spewing from my heart are divine, but my words were never enough to make you stay
8. I want you here. I want you to kiss the marks I created when I didn't want to wake up.
9. I miss you eminently and sometimes I can't feel my body. Please don't tell me you understand or that I'll be okay. You aren't ******* listening
10. I woke up choking your name
11. Every single time you promised to stay- you should have clarified that you meant as a memory
12. I've been splitting my veins like glow sticks in hopes of seeing new light
13. I'm ******* tired of all the metaphors, why can't it all just be about you again
14. Poe encountered a raven, while I encountered you. Somehow we both went mad
15. goodnight
