There are words that need to be written, but I can't seem to find them. Instead they keep me awake; searching and searching and searching... reminding me of the past, worrying about my future, trying to figure out where I went wrong and all of the ways I still could. They say to just write about what you feel; but this pain extends deeper than any given language could ever hope to explain. And if they don't exist how can they be used to help me recover? When will I get a reprieve? Find time for my poor soul to grieve.