I am 16 years old Yet I am suffering from anxiety I am suffering with the fact that I can never find my happy place I don't understand how I feel the need to cry I feel like I'm just a girl talking about problems Problems that aren't that heavy Why is that I tell bits and pieces but never the whole story Who can I tell without looking like a fake person See whenever I cried I was told that I was being dramatic Till this day I don't like people seeing me cry cause I feel dramatic I am scared of the outcome of reality I am terrified ofΒ Β the fact that I cry in front of people I am scared for the fact that the boy that I like will think of me as a basket case or even worse I will get judged Who is to say I won't get judged see people say that the way a person gets treated is all about their race I never understood that I don't get how a white boy doesn't feel the same painΒ Β we do I don't get why I was told in the first grade that I was black I remember picking up the black crayon and looking around to see anyone that matches that color But never being able to find it I don't get why I panic about this I really do not feel the need to cry either Today I was told to look myself in the mirror , I never did because I knew that I wouldn't like what I see I don't see myself as beautiful I do not see myself as perfect When i see myself in the mirror the only thing I see is a face and a name To be honest I haven't discovered who I am yet I haven't thought about who I wanna be Which still gives me anxiety Ik I want to be someone Ik I wanna reach for the stars But I do not know why I have trust issues I won't lie I bottle everything up My life is not always as it seems I don't like to be yelled at cause I already get yelled at too much I do not like the fact that I feel the need to hide I do not like the fact that I never want to have children Because knowing that I will have children Makes me feel like I will **** them up So please stop adding anymore anxiety honestly I'm good as it is rn I am not a basket case I Am not dramatic I am simple a 16 year old girl who faces anxiety