I am so tired of being depressed I don't want to complain to people about how sad I get sometimes They don't care They have their own problems They don't give a **** about mine Sometimes it is impossible to leave the house because the anxiety that comes from being sad is too much for me to handle I get so frustrated because it's bad enough I get so sad to the point that I want to end my life I hate walking around with the feeling like I am constantly being suffocated When the sadness and anxiety get to be too much I just want to give up on myself I am so exhausted Do you have any idea what it's like to fight something that you cannot see? The criticism from ordinary people with ordinary problems are so mean especially when those ordinary people are family members I look into the mirror sometimes and I am just disgusted I can see in my eyes all of the emotional ******* I carry it is enough to make me physically sick I just want to bury myself in some blankets and never wake up I can't even sleep because the stress of my anxiety likes to keep me awake I am so angry now I do not want to ******* deal with this I am tired I feel like I am losing my mind because my head hurts so much I don't know what the **** to do I just want to be normal I want to be a normal woman with normal emotions, normal thoughts, a normal sleep pattern, normal self esteem, normal everything!
I am so irritated that even the wind currently blowing outside makes me want to shoot myself in the face I can't tell anyone how I feel because they will worry I don't want people to worry I want people to tell me I will be okay because right now I do not feel okay I feel scared I feel tired and I don't know what to do
WRITTEN BY: Mandie Michelle Sanders WRITTEN ON: April. 16, 2016 Saturday 8:14 AM