but darling,
i must not say that
you deserve someone better
for if you truly were enamored of me,
i would have been the best.

but darling,
if all these years i was not,
then i must conclude
we only were confused.
and so we both were fooled,
i must confess.

but darling,
if all these years i was not,

i defy you
to not take a day to move on,
i defy you
to not long for my existence,
i defy you
to not reminisce our moments,
i defy you
to not try to break the walls
i will once again build.

but darling,
i must not say that
you deserve someone better
for what i had in me
that i gave you is different,
is irreplaceable,
is a thing i never thought i had.

and so is what your lover will give you.

but darling,
before i bid goodbye,
forgive me for giving up,
forgive me for breaking us apart,
forgive me for taking back my heart,
and forgive me for not forgiving you.

but darling,
i must not say that
you deserve someone better.

you deserve someone,
not better,
but is not me.