Apr 2016
Each day I'm going to wake up in the arms of a pillow pet instead of you
Reliving those last moments together
I almost died on my way home that night
I'm was so afraid to lose the star that guided me through the night
Each day I'm going to wake up in the arms of a pillow pet instead of you
Reliving each time you were in my arms saying you loved me
We never thought we could live without each other
I should have died that night
Each day I'm going to wake up in the arms of a pillow pet
Wishing I could go back to that summer night
When we first met
I should have kissed you then
I was so alive that night
Each day I'm going to wake up in the arms of a pillow pet
With a cold sweat from the dreams I have of you staring at me like you're lost again
But this time I can't find you
And this time I can't save you
Each day I'm going to go to bed with a pillow pet in my arms saying all the things I wish I could have said when I had the chance to say them, like
I love you more than I've ever loved myself
I love you more than Ive ever loved myself
I love you more than I've ever loved myself
Each day I'm going to go to bed with a pillow pet in my arms being squeezed to death, baby girl, I will never let this go
Because I promised I would never let you down
And here we are ten months later and I've left you to drown
If only I could save you and just dive back in the water
My friends keep pushing me off the diving board to rescue you
I don't need a float because your love was weightless like a delicate feather floating in the air
What a beautiful presence you brought upon our eyes
I'm afraid that if I dive in the water to save you
Giving you my breath to breathe again
Then you'd wake up and realize that I was the one to make you drown in the first place
And you'd return my breath and tell me
That I saved you once but I can't save you twice
Now your eyes are red
And so are mine
Each lifetime I will go to bed with a pillow pet in my arms instead of you
Drowning in an ocean of guilt
with no one to save me
Such an ironic way to pass
Only a coward could stay alive and try to swim to shore
I will live my life at the bottom of the sea
hoping that maybe someday in another lifetime, you'd come to find me
Reliving those last moments together
I almost died on my way home that night
I'm was so afraid to lose the star that guided me through the night
Each day I'm going to wake up in the arms of a pillow pet instead of you
Reliving each time you were in my arms saying you loved me
We never thought we could live without each other
I should have died that night
Each day I'm going to wake up in the arms of a pillow pet
Wishing I could go back to that summer night
When we first met
I should have kissed you then
I was so alive that night
Each day I'm going to wake up in the arms of a pillow pet
With a cold sweat from the dreams I have of you staring at me like you're lost again
But this time I can't find you
And this time I can't save you
Each day I'm going to go to bed with a pillow pet in my arms saying all the things I wish I could have said when I had the chance to say them, like
I love you more than I've ever loved myself
I love you more than Ive ever loved myself
I love you more than I've ever loved myself
Each day I'm going to go to bed with a pillow pet in my arms being squeezed to death, baby girl, I will never let this go
Because I promised I would never let you down
And here we are ten months later and I've left you to drown
If only I could save you and just dive back in the water
My friends keep pushing me off the diving board to rescue you
I don't need a float because your love was weightless like a delicate feather floating in the air
What a beautiful presence you brought upon our eyes
I'm afraid that if I dive in the water to save you
Giving you my breath to breathe again
Then you'd wake up and realize that I was the one to make you drown in the first place
And you'd return my breath and tell me
That I saved you once but I can't save you twice
Now your eyes are red
And so are mine
Each lifetime I will go to bed with a pillow pet in my arms instead of you
Drowning in an ocean of guilt
with no one to save me
Such an ironic way to pass
Only a coward could stay alive and try to swim to shore
I will live my life at the bottom of the sea
hoping that maybe someday in another lifetime, you'd come to find me
