i am: fall off the bone, tenderized, dry. Caked mud falling from the mass. God forsake me. The way in which a love clouds my nostrils and my mind will mesh shut at each new instance of the molecules O and H forming the stuff of my body, makes me faint. I am now. Heartbeats tick unwillingly. I am yes. Kiss me and I'm yours, I'm -fall into his arms, princess, you who have the world at your beck and call- , casual, I am innoculation.
innoculation: a historical method for the prevention of smallpox by deliberate introduction of its pustules into the skin