Day 51. I didn't check your facebook so I ate Ben & Jerry's to celebrate. Day 52. I caved and checked your facebook but you've been only adding dudes. Day 53. I went to our neighborhood bar and a regular said he thought you were *** and I laughed and was like "yaaaassss" Day 54. There's a certain song that makes me think of you and I'm so mad at myself because its a good song but I can't listen to it without gettig teary because I miss your touch. Day 55. I had false hope and I saw my replacement's bike out ya house Dat 56: I bought a ten dollar pack of cigarettes and you came down to the bar and we both couldn't make eye contact because it hurt so bad to look at each other and be attached. Day 57. I drank myself into nothing. Day 58. I tried to figure out what I should do about my entire life but I just watched Parks and Reck all day. Day 59. I broke a glass on purpose because I felt out of control and just wanted my boyfriend back. Day 60. I never left my bed. Day 61. I hadn't showered in days and only left my bed once for delivery. Dat 62. I needed to quote my favorite B.E.E "I know longer know who I am, and feel like the ghost of a total stranger."