Day 31. I promised myself I'd stop drinking, but my alcoholism has gotten worse. Day 32. I was happy that you haven't added any women on facebook. Day 33. My hands shook all day. Day 34. You blocked my number. Day 35. I lost myself in a man I didn't care about. Day 36. I was so wasted. Day 37. I had no choice to walk past your house. Day 38. My cat made me think of you. Day 39. I thought about stopping going to my neighborhood bar because I didn't want to see you anymore. Day 40. I excessively brush my teeth. Day 41. I fell in love with my home town. Day 42. I depend on my sugar daddy. Day 43. I started living in my roommate's bed. Day 44. I still miss you so badly. Day 45. I grabbed a Lil Kim record from my new guy's roommate. Day 46. I put on so much make-up that I didn't recognize myself. Day 47. I heard an inside joke we shared, and you weren't around and I cried. Day 48. I stopped stalking your social media. Day 49. I lost a friend. Day 50. I think I'm going to be okay.