Feb 2016
This temper that lives inside
Storms out unexpectedly
Like a monster unleashed
Ignited by stress
Spilling Anger
Yelling in irritation
Sensing my mother
Lurking in my shadow
A vile aftertaste still lingers
Forced fed by her poisonous venom
Until I realize
I'm roaring
Splashing my screams onto
My loved ones
Making them cry
The beast has taken over
From the depths
Where my momster
Lay her eggs
Waiting for them to hatch
And be released
In shame and guilt
The last thing I want
Is the mirage of that
Ghost haunting
My babies
The creature that resides
Hidden from the world
To protect against
The carnivores who feasted
On my innocence
Now breathing to exhale my scare
Away from my young's oxygen
One breath at a time until
The monster's ghost
Has settled back
Deep inside my oppressed soul
© Jl 2016
Storms out unexpectedly
Like a monster unleashed
Ignited by stress
Spilling Anger
Yelling in irritation
Sensing my mother
Lurking in my shadow
A vile aftertaste still lingers
Forced fed by her poisonous venom
Until I realize
I'm roaring
Splashing my screams onto
My loved ones
Making them cry
The beast has taken over
From the depths
Where my momster
Lay her eggs
Waiting for them to hatch
And be released
In shame and guilt
The last thing I want
Is the mirage of that
Ghost haunting
My babies
The creature that resides
Hidden from the world
To protect against
The carnivores who feasted
On my innocence
Now breathing to exhale my scare
Away from my young's oxygen
One breath at a time until
The monster's ghost
Has settled back
Deep inside my oppressed soul
© Jl 2016
My kids were really testing my patience one evening, as they pressed on my last nerve, I fell over the edge. I yelled at them, sent them in time out, and then sat in guilt while I heard their cries. I'm usually a very laid back quiet mom, but loses it sometimes. That time I yelled louder than ever before, and felt horrible after. I wrote this in that moment.
