I once had a lover that on the most ordinary of days Out shopping for underwear Looked at my reflection in the mirror and said I love the boy in you And I love the girl in you And everything in between
Later they asked me what love is And I said I think that's what love is Seeing everything in between the reflection Seeing somebody clearer than they see themselves I said tell Me you love every piece of me The skin I shed The skin that hates this chest The “it's a boy” they never said The “I love yous” they never meant I've spent so much time trying to find the in between where there's no haircuts Or funny ways of dressing Or anything confusing about my chest I'll just keep choosing to ignore the way they say You're so beautiful In the same breath as potential As if it's a credential for my anatomy
Instead tell me I'm the cutest boy you've ever had in your bed Tell me my body isn't woman it's just the wild Tell me flesh is nothing I'm made of light Tell me my light is beautiful Touch my soft Touch my belly button but not like they ever touched me Touch me like I'm the kind of soft that can turn hard A tin roof against the rain Beating a thunderstorms refrain into music They told me I have too much bark Too much bite I'm too pretty to fight
So tell me instead I'm the softest pebble you've ever skipped across your body And ripples are born of my feathered fists and my hammering heart Tell me softness has no gender Tell me our body's never knew what gender meant I want to be gender bent over till it breaks And takes the freighttrain words of haters But don't you cringe under the jagged teeth of their stares **** my love into your body and hold it there Always write a poem in my body And use the words they spit at us But instead infuse them with a welcome song to tell my body it's found home Everything we do rhymes with ****** rhymes with **** rhymes with queer These labels belong to us The fear in these labels does not belong to us I'm here to witness you try to live in a body you call home without trying to run away I wish my body was made of clay so I could fit it into the box labeled “I love you no matter what” Will you love me no matter what
If I want you to bend me over backwards until I break the reflection the mirror tries to make of me And find it's just glass Like my see through skin Try to see through my skin Tell me you see me I'll see every piece of you Soft Hard Apart Together Girl Boy But never in a box I'll take that box labeled “I'll love you no matter what” and I'll break it down Leave that truth around your bones Until you believe it can't break
That truth will be our home and we can live in that between because that's where love is.