I remember so long ago now Being a baby girl and learning. Every day learning new things. Life was like a big notebook ready to filled in like a journal.
At age six my older sister was in front of the bathroom mirror She pinched her tummy and scowled. We skipped breakfast and went to school hungry.
At age 9 I was on the school bus Boys were laughing at a nerdy girl with thick glasses reading schoolbooks. When I got home I hid all my books.
At Age 13 I went into the girl’s washroom The mirrors were all taken by girls in my class putting on makeup. And talking how boys only liked girls who looked older and ****. The next day I unfastened my braids put on dark red lipstick and black eye shadow. Wearing short shorts and a low tank top.
At age 15 I saw my father drunk and angry He hit my mother, mom wept and said he didn’t mean it. he was under a lot of pressure at work. The next year I said my boyfriend didn’t mean it either. when he hit me.
At Age 20 I looked into the full length mirror My gaunt starved body looked back at me. The dead looking lanky blonde hair and translucent skin looked death like. The black eye shadow on my eyes looked like a corpse The dark red lips seemed out of character. I shrugged my bony shoulders And said Well at least I am normal.
Does this seem familiar in today's consumer society. Suffer the little Children. Jude