What am I still holding on to? Why do I still seem to care so much for you?
You never really seem to care anymore anyway
When I reach out to you, you block me out When I try to talk to you, you close yourself from me Every word I say passes through your ears Every smile I give leaves you emtionless Everything I do goes by unnoticed Brushed off by a mere swipe of a hand Every poem I write and every song I sing, they're all for you But you didn't even seem to care Brick by brick, you've built a wall around yourself A wall too high to climb A wall too thick to push my way through A wall too strong to for me take down Forcing me to give all my effort To take each and every brick in my grasp And bring them down One by one Leaving my hands broken tired and bruised
Let's face it: We're drifting, and that ***** Our daily conversations have run dry We used to talk about our dreams, our interests, our passions Our plans for the world to see People we want to be Our pasts, our present and our futures We used to talk about OURSELVES But now I feel like you've run out of interest for me And I feel like every word I say takes so much effort Because I try so hard to keep the conversation alive Even though deep down I know it's slowly dying Because I don't want to let it die Because I don't ever wanna stop talking to you Because I don't want to drift from the person I used to spend hours on end having endless chats with Maybe we're just running out of things to talk about And I don't really know why
Sometimes I feel that us drifting is one sided Like I spend all this time thinking about you When I wonder if you even realize that I still exist I'm still here I think about how long we haven't talked I think about our last texts, our last messages When you probably don't even remember the conversations we've had
So what the hell am I still holding on to?
I'm holding on to the memories we've made I'm holding on the conversations we used to share I'm holding on the the laughs, the smiles, the good times we've had I'm holding on to the poems the letters the songs All written in your name Hoping that someday you'll find the time To read them To remember and look back on what once was But most of all, I'm holding on to those 3 words that you said "I Love You!!!"
I miss you, I really do I miss the old us I miss our friendship
And it's sad to think that I'm still here Holding on to all those things All the things that we've been through When you've already let go A long time ago