These medications make my emotions hazy. An inversion in Salt Lake, Utah occurs in my mind. The surrounding mountains of guilt and shame create the perfect bowl for smog to stay. Hiking up peaks to view the city lights and instead I see halos of gold through fake fog. Back down to a car that swerves through canyons while going just slow enough to see the road’s edge. Walking up and down the streets no one can tell of the poison we all breathe in together. Utah, a happy place, where strangers smile at each other and try to force themselves to believe that they are not fake.