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Dec 2015
How many of ya have felt a lesson?
One that left you begging.
Begging for forgiveness
Hopeless and wish less
I've been at the bottom, cold and ******
felt like I had nobody
Had to pick it back up, learn how to jump, over the things that tried to stop me.
Remember passing out one night after sippin on pain
Falling asleep in the mist of her rain
Telling myself "boy, how you gonna make it?"
So many sleepless nights that my eye lids were always tired & complacent
And I'm impatient
No one ever caught a dream sitting and waiting
Held my breath for so long
I feel like fainting

But you gotta believe (yeah)
Your heart the only thing to help you achieve (yeah)
How can change without uncomfortablity? (Yeah)
Who cares what you want if you don't know what you need (yeah)
I've been loving a lieeee
I've been fooled by a woman's eyes
Her kiss gives me the best kinda high
Turned on by her infectious mind...
But she's gone
It's harder to watch em move on
Emotions can leave you drunk...
Their toxins fill up your lungs
Cupid is shooting his karma
All those past women I'm sorry for the past drama
Please can you forgive me?
Don't make me go down on my knees
My family finally accepts me,
As I've changed and killed off a man
A man that was vile and angry
A person I no longer am.
But I don't believe we change,
I think we have better control of our inner monster's reigns.
I still have urges and feel him rip on the chains
I'm afraid of his potential rage!
I've lost another idol... Left looking up to only one man.
Drew a collection of what I expected
But time showed me that true colors always win.
But I'm him...myself. I will become who I am...
Don't need a ******* idol...because I'm my own salvaged man.
(Echoed out)

(Dougie hit em with it)

Regression, depression
I've killed, been aggressive
I've struggle, I've hustled
Learned to relay the message.
Oh dear god show me the revering.
This soul is stirring, sins so reoccurring
My feet can't take the distance of this journey. Need to listen then speak, need to heal the weak. Need to follow my heart, need to plant my seed.
Need to encourage the change, fix a heart so derranged. They say once it's broken it is never the same. Need to learn to forgive, drop the baggage and live. There's a world that I'm missing, held back by my ignorance. I can feel, someone steal, the light to the end of the road... Put the light back on so the good is exposed. Let the fire just roast and the flames spark our past. Because without the spark no motvation would last. Believe in yourself and feel the future arrive! Because you need your passion and love for life in order to stand a chance and survive...
As I rise...
From the newborn ways of which I now chose to follow.. And watch the old me slowly die...
But is this okay for the world?
Why is imagination shrinking?
Our wandering thoughts are captured due to our distorted thinking..."

Let me go, what do you want from me?
Get me out! This is a crime? Cause of my mind!? Because all it is that I want...

--- I just wanna break free ---
No idea what I'm saying...or I do... NOT MY BEST...I think??
Dougie Simps
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Dougie Simps  NYC
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