It is the birth day de mi padre,
I lay, grateful for the conversations before we had to part ways.
Inside of myself I see your face,
Calm, still, and happy fills my summer headspace
The void used to be a bruise to me, and I bumped it all the time. Subconsciously moreso, but it brought me to my rhymes. Thanks for helping me realize all will be alright. It's now 111, I'm seeing special signs. The beginning only begins once you let it in your mind. One can never be defined, but my bias helps allow me to see the depth in your eyes. Eternally a part of the design, reminding spines that they're intricate & divine. Thank you for your choices, and the genesis it bred. Thank you for the time, and the warm thoughts to blanket my head. In the end, it came down to what was said. I can rest in bed smiling because the timing was perfect, for had you waited to say anything then it would have never been worded. There stands Mars, staring at the stars. Inebriated and contemplating just how far you really are. Imagination fills the dark, in my pocket there's a spark, and when ya wanna speak it will go straight into my heart.
I long left the cage made of rage when I decided to turn the page in order to set the stage. Unfortunately sometimes it takes a tragedy for us to come of age. Blessed in the ways we can seize the current day. Jump in, the water's great, and here comes another wave,~ Underneath the splash crashes I heard my name, it was you, telling me everything is okay - and to float back up and become a mirror for those already saved. I miss you, and wish you could stay. I remain a child longing, with a mystery to taste. So here eye am, unafraid, and destined to forever play among the blades of grass. Appreciate what was, but know there is no home within the past. Release the anxious worry over how long on this earth we're going to last. Over-exerted circuits in the brain retire too fast - which doesn't allow the proper growth to know patience. Ascension is not always painless. I once was a patient desperately waiting to be seen. dabbling around chemistry with a head full of steam. Then I let go and a black hole swallowed those walls whole, along with the notion that we had no control. Now I row, straight into my dream with intention. Hoping to see you there for some sort of healthy lesson. Apologies to my surroundings for the jumbled mess of stresses. Embracing it all and cutting away the self to delve with introspection. Abundantly grateful to exist, and find solace in these confessions.
I love you, Happy birthday Dad, rest easy
12/12/70 - 11/16/08