i haven't experienced any type of emotion for a while;
haven't got too angry, too sad, too anxious
neither did i get too happy, too calm, too relaxed
as if all emotions faded into a black hole inside my heart.
have all my attempts to conceal my feelings triumphed?
if that's the case, i don't want to be a winner, i want.....i need to lose.
*it's that thin line between being too emotional and too emotionless;
a bipolar effect.