Do you remember when I was someone When I laughed about Little things and I Smiled often simply because I could see the Beauty in every Single breath I took
Do you remember when I used to read All of the silly Romance novels that Lived on my bookshelf And my bedside Table because I Believed that there was Hope for forever Becoming a reality
Do you remember when IΒ Β was someone who Was happy with the Person that I Knew that I wasΒ Β and I never had to Ask anyone to define Me and everything that I stood for
Do you remember when I was about Something other than Cigarettes and The sad poetry that Lines my walls and runs Through my mind all Of my waking Hours that I used to Spend talking to the People that meant Everything to me
Do you remember when I was myself and not Just someone who goes through The motions and gets By pretending to be Strong when in Reality my walls are Crumbling and I Have lost all hope
Do you remember when I had never cut Myself in an attempt To understand why the Pain was so much Better than what I Had to offer the People that I watched Fade away into Nothingness just Like I am doing now
Do you remember when I didn't **** Myself not because some One needed me but Because living was the Thing that made me Feel the most Alive when I Was at my worst
Do you remember when I was Something real and Not just a Reflection of the People who Were slowly dying in Front of my Eyes the same People who have Made me this way
*The Suicide Diaries
Everyone who knew me when I was someone is gone now. Everyone who mattered is gone now.