You know I said I like you and ting for real hope you're really happy and I do I do all I'm saying's if I had a wish a dream come true mine would be you'd get cancer d'you know what I mean? What are you’re leaving why?! Not painful or disfiguring you’ll still be hot nothing like that but terminal though You said you were my forever lover like Jacko, maybe pancreas or spleen? All I'm asking's a painless but certain death you know what I mean I know you do. I'm just trying to be honest you gotta Tell her about it everyone knows that Tell her all your crazy dreams Joel Billy all I'm saying's for me I'd be better off dead (you). Because all that Wishing you the best is nice and I do kinna but that's thinking about you; for me it's more desirable better if you = dead seen? I would rather you were in the ground lesbian or quadriplegic than watch another man have you; that's nice isn't it romantic? You are not about the future you’re about now the dance of life all present and **** but I want forever now; let’s do it together. For me.