I must not weep
I must not break
I must not cry
a must to fake
I must not scream
I must not bleed
they must not see
this part of me

should I
no I shouldn't
should I
oh how redundant
stand up straight
keep a smile
it has for months
become your style

I must not lose
I must not give in
I must not chase
I must not sin
I must not sigh
I must not waver
I must not hope
I must not miss her.