October 8th the worse day. I'm counting down the minutes. I'm counting down the hours. Reminding myself of the worse day of my life. It's the anniversary. It's hard to move on and just let go. People tell me I'm torchuring myself, when in reality I'm just facing the real world. Whats happened to me does not define me. But what I have gone through I know has changed me. Is that a good thing or a bad thing? I have all these hopes and dreams. I'm scared you won't be apart of them. Or she will **** up. Or dad will end up going crazy, once more. All over a date. A date that'll remain in my life forever. A date I wish to let go but know I can never, because I've learned and I've lost. This day is a day where the chapter is new and the print is bold. Not meak.