i have depression
and i don't want to be that person
that is disappointed at the end of their life
because half the time they didn't get out of bed
or sat in the shower for 2 hours
because it felt good to feel warmth for once
but its been running my life for so long
and i have been letting it win
letting it surround me
and its so hard to take back control
when i have to walk 1,000 miles
to get a shred of that control back