I feel like I am being pinned to the floor
as if someone is holding a pillow over my face
making it hard to breathe
I see the world spinning
I see colors mixing together making it hard to see straight
I am getting dizzy and it makes me want to throw up
Honestly all I want to do is sleep
I am tired
I am so tired that I am turning into a different person
I get so angry
I get so overwhelmed
Even when I do sleep it still feels like I have been up all night
I can't take much more of this
I am goIng CRazy
I JUST WANT TO SLEEP
I AM SO TIRED I JUST WANT TO CRY
I CAN SLEEP FOR TWO DAYS STRAIGHT AND STILL FEEL TIRED
I CAN'T EVEN KEEP MY EYES OPEN AS I WALK
I REALLY CAN'T TAke this anymore
I don't know what to do
I just want to sleep


This was written back when my insomnia was so bad I missed a week of school because I could not sleep. I was up for almost a week one time, my eyes had black circles underneath them, I could not take part in a conversation because my words would slur. I had one incident where I was walking home from school one afternoon and I fell asleep while walking. There were many times my Mom had to pick me up early from school because I would go to the counselors office so exhausted that she thought I was on drugs but I wasn't. My therapist at the time put me on sleeping pills. I missed another week of school to catch up on sleep I was missing and after about a month of developing a healthy sleep schedule, I was feeling much better. I still struggle with Insomnia from time to time but as an adult now I have better control over it than I did when I was a teenager. People think Insomnia is not a big deal but it actually is a big deal and it can cause many problems for people.