The graveyard was melting.
in the shadows of nightfall.
Darkness and death
are my fear my kryptonite.
Yet I opened and walked
into the iron gates as they
creaked  like old bones.

I needed to find you
I know you lived here now.
I could feel our friendship
still calling me as always.
In all the darkness I saw a light
a small  flickering flame.
It was on your headstone.
I knew it was yours.
Your mother had lit a candle
for you today.

I knelt down
and kissed the
granite headstone
with your name.
Not in prayer
it was too late for that.
Only whispering
“Hello my old friend”
quietly so no other ghost
can hear me.
I tossed on a playlist
on my phone
from the old days.
And sat dowin for
a chat like always.

Remember we were almost thirteen
We got detention for refusing to
Stop wearing black everything.
and even  wearing black lipstick?
We knew were special then
more than just girlfriends
More than sisters
we were us forever.

We learned how
to drink cheap wine.
Get drunk together
and get over hangovers.
You taught me to smoke ****
until I was green and sick.
Remember college
we got out of that boring
Home town
with a single traffic light.
We danced partied
and learned ***?
Experimented with drugs
it was crazyville.

I don’t know how we survived.
You were filled with hidden sickness
I was to the brim crazy.
But we did.
We always did.

at twenty two we got better?
You moved away and I went home.
I heard you married a woman.
Why did you never tell me
you were gay?
I would have married you
in a heartbeat.

I called you to get together
for a reunion.
Bring your sweet wife I said?
But you were already
starting to leave this world.
I met a friend  in a  coffee shop
the other day.
She told me you were gone
I asked gone where?
She looked at the floor just GONE.
So here I am sweetie
Here I am.

Do you remember
anything that day?
Except the sudden chest pain
The lack of oxygen.
Did you remember me?
Was I your last goodbye.

That’s when my tears happened
Wetting the granite stone.
I sob to you.
You know I always have loved you.
And it’s just not the same in crazyville
without you my best friend.

As if in answer to me
The moon peeped from behind a cloud.
And shone onto us in a beam.
I kissed her grave farewell
And walked alone into the darkness.